Its an ugly disease, not well-known, and hits people younger than typical Alzheimers symptoms would. Something as simple as a prion can completely destroy it and then there's Phineas Gage, someone whom all neurobio students learn about on day one of their course. It must be very difficult. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. SNBForums is a community for anyone who wants to learn about or discuss the latest in wireless routers, network storage and the ins and outs of building and maintaining a small network. Its sad to hear about Lees diagnosis; it would have been great to meet him: aside from talking about technical stuff, Im sure it would have been interesting to hear about his time in high school. Not so great in reality, Id been kidding myself. Dopamine is the fuel. What they found in the study is that if they blocked D1 and D2 receptors, the rats stopped working for the big reward. FS Plant. The trouble with the typicalness of more typical engineers is that they're steeped in a technical culture which they regard as the proper and obvious way to do things, but which really is mostly just the set of conventions they're used to. Some additional info that might be of interest to this crowd: He was fantastic at video games (RTS and RPG) and chess. For God to truly endow us with free will, He had to allow us to fail, even this miserably, and to cause our contemporaries and descendants to suffer for our failures. It's such a tragic story because this happened in the prime of life, and like the article said the adverse behaviors were initially thought to be a mid-life crisis. and we'd just hook it up. He was fired from work and divorced from his wife before the diagnosis, so obtaining coverage from work has required lawyers and is still unresolved. Natural loves can hope for eternity only is so far as they have allowed themselves to be taken into the eternity of Charity; have at least allowed the process to begin here on earth, before the night comes when no man can work. Incredible article, and really makes me appreciate how lucky I am to have my cognitive faculties. In Cloudflare's early years, Lee Holloway had been the resident genius, the guy who could focus for hours, code pouring from his fingertips while death metal blasted in his headphones. Services pending. As long as you have the necessary tooling for source control, versioning, code search, etc. With every structure we come up with, every function and/or abstraction we also build a mental picture of all the possible dependencies it comes with. Sometime in late spring 2018 my productivity plummeted. While Lee's personality changed a lot over time, he was always the guy who got more out of hanging out in a garage building something than someone touring France/Italy/etc. Donations to this fund will be designated 50 percent to AFTDs support programs and 50 percent to research. Frontotemporal dementia impacts between 50,000 and 60,000 Americans, according to a rough estimate cited by the Alzheimers Association, and it tends to impact younger people, beginning at age 45. The devastating decline of Lee Holloway, one of the co-founders of Cloudflare Posted April 15, 2020 by Deimos Tags: cloudflare , mental health , lee holloway , frontotemporal dementia , diseases.neurodegenerative , author.sandra upson , long read , paywall This seems much harder to do for stored procedures. For me the saddest thing in life is the loss of potential, when someone could have done so much more, actually wanted to do more and was even trying to do more, but then something tragic happens. Passion is rarely nourished by money. How is data replicated to those? Do Not Sell or Share My Personal Information. He was "the resident genius, the guy who could focus for hours, code pouring from his fingertips while death metal blasted in his headphones.". It's been worrying me for the last few months so much so that I started meditating which I've never done before. You will naturally tend toward systems that minimize effort, and maximize reward. @ggreer, the grand-grandparent, wrote: Version numbers work great as schemas. Lee Holloway, 83 of Cumming, GA passed away August 1, 2022. That is the only long term subtle 'sign' I can remember. _"[] pause. In the meantime, they would live off their savings and Kristin's salary from a new job at an ad tech firm. May Lee and Kristins story teach us a beautiful lesson about love and mental health in entrepreneurship. taupathies suck. Neurosciencealso offers only a partial answer to the question of what makes youyou. If it was all part of a particular kind of brain. I'm here with you, I still love the idea of software, but I can't get myself to sit there and code even the most fun projects. I'm not a doctor, and there very well may be some other connection, but my sense in this case was the routine of work actually allowed him to hold the effects of the disease off and, at those times when he didn't have it, those effects accelerated. They were both Men of God who spread love and unity amongst and between their different cultures. It's a tragic story. He started making really inappropriate statements, and generally acting weird, started buying commemorative coins and not paying his bills. Mr. Holloway was born April 13, 1968, a son of the late Samuel Holloway and Linda Sue (Seabolt) Allen Funeral services for Lee Holloway, 90, of Rainbow City, will be at 12:30 p.m. on Monday at Collier-Butler Funeral Home. If freewill is so sacred why does the OT and NT have so many examples of freewill being removed? (This is often referred to as the 'hiring problem', though that can be misleading.) Perhaps this is too philosophical, but for anyone who has dealt with someone with a long decline into dementia, it's very difficult for me to understand a belief in God after going through that (I certainly understand some people have the exact opposite reaction, so I'm in no way saying this belief is correct). There're a lot of risk and uncertainty trade-offs, and everyone reacts to things differently due to their genetics and what they're suffering from, but nootropic substances could potentially help here. Often what looks like an ugly wart was a very compact representation of domain knowlege for a special use case. For some likely completely unreasonable reason, I feel like Dr. Carroll is a bit better of a choice having had a child with a leak. Kristin, Association for FrontoTemporal Degeneration. The eyes/brain scan the page looking for a hit. The risk of a heart attack also significantly increases when white blood cell count gets high as their presence fuels inflammatory processes in obstructed blood vessels. I think those kind of stories are even more terrifying for us, programmers, because we can normally lose everything but as long as we have our mind intact we can earn our living and start from zero anytime. What ifs break down into belief "this is actually happening, this is reality." I imagine that was a challenge for those close to Lee. I actually live quite far away from Cedars, in Illinois, but forwarded my local medical records to Dr. Schievink after a lot of online research. Initially found this a few years ago when I was doing a "deep dive" on Cloudflare. She misses the warmth in their daily interactions. I had a tumor removed from my head. Yes, in some similar situations, some programmers will see things that way. Exactly. > Postgrest looks like intended for people building a web app, and who don't want to write application server code, instead, they install just a database? The database ran everything and all those functions made sure that audit logs were kept, that the calls were allowed for the user ID being passed in, and some of these procedures made external calls to APIs including getting things like SSL certificates. There are plenty of ways to do this. Great question. Prince noticed too but chalked it up to a slow recovery from the surgery. I posted this hours ago and then stepped away. Late Dr. Oliver Sacks in his book "musicophilia" spent a chapter on Frontotemporal Dementia (FTD). This may be perceived as a mild stimulating effect in healthy people, but could hypothetically potentially speed up some feedback loop which leads to faster neuron death in people with certain neurodegenerative diseases.). Otherwise theres be no war. Boring? Stored procedures get a bad rep from the places where they are train wrecks. My Dad was diagnosed with that in the past year, (after obviously struggling for a while), and declined rapidly. The docs definitely need a lot of improvement. On thing they refer to in this transcendent reality is apprehension of "the coincidence of opposites". I think, man, the code used to just flow so easily, and now it requires effort. Ive occasionally been asked if about notable graduates; I guess I have someone to point to now. I actually think that doing things in stored procedures could be a great hack to squeeze out some extra performance, and I'm sure that a system like this can accomplish some important business goals. Not long after, Lee and Kristin took a trip to Europe, spending a few days in France, just as Lee and Alexandra had years earlier. It survived both political parties in power. Dr. Ian Carroll is arguably the best resource in the world. Not a gotcha or academic question, just something on my mind recently. "Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.". Personality changes are documented to occur after bypass and correlate with areas of the frontal cortex that die. Bring help and support to the next family affected by FTD volunteer your time and talents, raise much-needed funds, or make a donation. Check you sleep. A person today has many of the same psychological states as that person a day ago. Lee Holloway, one of three founders of the website security and performance company Cloudflare, was diagnosed with behavioral variant FTD in 2017 at age 36. It sounds more like he's just reverting to a state where his behaviors and consciousness coming from the cerebellum/brainstem, i.e. He was preceeded by a daughter Kathleen Holloway Kommick. Prince meanwhile owns 20.2% of the companys class B shares and 16.6% of all outstanding shares, and Zatlyn has 6.8% of the companys class B shares and 5.6% of the overall shares outstanding. Cloudflare is a great platform, and I'm glad, thanks to Ms. Upson, I got to know one of the folks responsible for it a little bit. I almost made all our customers write rules using it. I spent most of my time with him when he only starting a family and his business tasks were few. For what it's worth, I had back-of-head-and-neck headaches intermittently for a while before this, most notably when riding rollercoasters (which I do miss). Incredibly saddening to read. 1) coding via repl - e.g. The type information is there. If I was given such a diagnosis while still lucid, I think I would want to try every experimental treatment available, if any exist. The ability to make strong abstract connections transforming into misassociations? Justin Lee Holloway, age 51, of Atlanta, Georgia passed away on Monday, January 3, 2022. 12 grandchildren, 7 great grandchildren. Maybe it was the direction or the editing, but there was so much romance in it for me as a kid growing up in SV during that era. I was angry at him when he left. The question that occurs to me is: if you knew that was in your future, would you spend your last 10 good years toiling at a startup? It's hard for the later engineer who experiences the 'nightmare' to fully appreciate that if it weren't for that weird, obviously 'wrong' system, they wouldn't have their job in the first place (nightmare and all), because the business that succeeded was built on the weird system. It's isomorphic to your argument; it is your argument's essence. (basically all nouns) in real time during the conversation to fill in the gaps in his memories. Can you help me unpack your comment here? I suspect there is an underlying current of frustration, but probably not a high level cognitive realization (at least not a sudden one) that his mind is degrading. I was just a few paragraphs into the article before I started wondering. I watched that movie with my wife 15 years ago, now, and it remains the scariest, saddest movie I've ever seen. For one thing, being in the U.S. healthcare system, if I did have the markers, would that then count as a "pre-existing condition" I'd have to disclose? In Augustine's view it's only outside of time, with God, that human beings can fully exist - thus earthly suffering is nothing compared to the joy of being in Heaven. My diagnosis happened after I had an acute attack of intracranial hypotension shortly following a long and bumpy session of riding mowing. Lee and his parents have moved there, and he has full-time care assistance too. Funeral Home Services for Lee . Like in 2 Kings 1:10 and other places, if God is fine with freewill being ignored, and God never changes, then he can act, and if he can act would he not be considered unjust by Jesus words in Luke 18:1-8? Verbosity and fitness for purpose: while there is a kind of beauty in pure set-based SQL querying, stored procedures by their nature tend to be a procedural paradigm, and in my opinion, they are not particularly well suited to it. It was strange going back and reading some of his old emails and letters recently to try and find some info I needed. His old college roommate met up with Lee when the "looping thoughts" symptoms first started to present and the roommate (who had been overseas for 10 years before that) commented that he almost called 9/11 because he thought Lee was having some sort of a stroke. In my experience, rarely are even "barely good enough" tools in place, let alone anything close to what exists in other environments. That's chapter 28: "irrepressible: music and temporal lobes". He reminded me too much of my ex-husband, also a high level programmer, and his sleep habits and growing apathy and irritability while we were together (though he might point to me as the cause). Sandra did a wonderful piece in capturing Lee, his family, his work, and his degeneration. Mess with the biological Jell-O in just the right ways and the structure of the self reveals its fragility. I utterly lack the motivation, energy, and focus, to pursue prolonged difficult tasks (like good programming takes). Really strange how a brain can be so intelligent and then fail. Humans are the ones who have created such an overwhelming and toxic physical environment and disconnected social one. She was puzzled, but between his migraines and his heart issue, there was always an explanation at hand. That's what's terrifying to me. Sad. I'm in the same boat. Yes, your code runs next to your data, but to get parity with application code (canary deploys, debugging, logging, etc) you must reinvent lots of tooling. King of Prussia, PA 19406, 2022 The Association for Frontotemporal Degeneration Cloudflare did not respond today to questions about Holloway, but Prince and Zatlyn, in a section of the filing addressed to potential shareholders, credit Holloway as the genius who architected our platform and recruited and led our early technical team. In fact, they write, when picking a code name for the companys IPO, they chose Project Holloway to honor his contribution, because the technical decisions Lee made, and the engineering team he built, are fundamental to the business we have become.. Lee Holloway was a brilliant coder, co-founder, and master architect of Cloudflare. Also, I imagine Postgrest is nice for internal admin apps? The thought of someone I love (in the broadest sense of the word) being affected by this is horrific. Edit: Now I see there're explanations here: https://postgrest.org/en/v7.0.0/ " Motivation The cookie is set by GDPR cookie consent to record the user consent for the cookies in the category "Functional". Advertisement cookies are used to provide visitors with relevant ads and marketing campaigns. We're the three cofounders of Cloudflare," he boomed, stabbing the air with his finger as he spoke. Getting to the hospital seemed too painful, so I stuck it out at home and the headache went away. And it wasn't just videogames. That way at least symptoms may be recognized early and treatment can be more effective (since it is at least partially treatable and has a large behavioral aspect). Lee's coding, though, was the main event. You can't conceive of any future "knowledge" or state of being or most broadly, "configuration of reality" which could retroactively justify or "make right" proven and real human suffering already suffered. But opting out of some of these cookies may affect your browsing experience. This site is protected by reCAPTCHA and the Google They studied motivation & effort in rats, essentially asking the question: That seems to make sense and seems to be happening to a lot of us. Many of us will experience exactly the same with a beloved one ( probably a parent, maybe a significant other). Every person is a door to your happiness, and you have the choice to serve their happiness or to treat them callously or even cruelly. I see parts of myself in Kristins story, the part of me that loves, the part of me that grieves for the loss of love, and my hope for a love that is transformative and life-giving to others. I am selling my PC and iPad for a small laptop. CSF leaks/hypotension are also potentially implicated in frontotemporal dementia: >> It was interesting to see for Lee how this seemed amplified after heart surgery. But some are, and the bias in our industry is extremely strong toward perceiving them as nightmares. Overturning Obamacare was their number one priority during the Obama administration. Writing in the 1970s, renowned philosopher Derek Parfit recast Locke's idea to argue that personhood emerges from a more complex view of psychological connectedness across time. It took me a while to comprehend what he'd done but it was really great. It's very hard to write out simple, easy-to-understand, "rules," or "concepts," or whatever. Diversion, pixelserv-tls, Skynet, YazFi, scribe, connmon, ntpMerlin, scMerlin, uiDivStats, uiScribe, Unbound, FlexQoS, disk checker, on Ext4 w/J + 2GB swap file, 2x RT-AX86U in wired backhaul (2.5GbE) AiMesh mode, Running: 2 x ac86u and 1 x ac68u in AiMesh mode (86u as main), 386.1 - FlexQOS, spdMerlin, conmon, scMerlin. And those conventions change over time. His motor functions eventually deteriorated and he passed away a few weeks ago. He wasn't a member of the club, but he won the tournament anyway. In the end, we imaged his brain and diagnosed him with frontotemporal dementia. That would be like doing a gradual deploy of a schema migration. Nonetheless, he was convinced he had done it, and was very impulsive and saddened by it (he would tearfully confess over and over). Click. Holloway, Lee The Honorable Milwaukee County Board Chairman Lee Edward Holloway passed away at home on March 14, 2018. It can take a long time to get your head into that space but it produces much more maintainable and robust systems in my experience. A look? No company initiative has been recorded for Lee Holloway View All. Every single part of the story except the age, all the changes in the behavior small and large, how hard it is to live and/or manage someone with dementia, how difficult it is to come to terms with it, etc, happens to an awful lot of people. And then v2 app server code, would use that new view. Not both A and not A Firstly, I'd like to say that SPs can be quite awesome, for several of the reasons already stated. So if its any consolation, great idea and great executions are really rare. [0]: https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/6807951-i-speak-of-a-tragic edit: corrected the quote and added a link. It was like, "Wow! It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. If so, then you should consider using an AI content generator. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/brain-wise/201802/th https://quoteinvestigator.com/2010/06/29/be-kind/. Most devs don't understand databases very well, and in most companies, independent DBA teams and independent dev teams end up burning tons of energy fighting for turf. My hunch is that this is related to spending long periods of time in front of a computer, with internet addiction gradually making my ability to focus worse and worse. Lees first wife and girlfriend from undergrad, Alexandra, whom he married in 2008, noticed his first signs of decline: In 2011, she started noticing that Lee was growing distant and forming some odd new habits. Sign up now and stay on top of the latest with our newsletter, event alerts, and more, The Association for Frontotemporal Degeneration Take YouTube as an example. The only things that work are tobacco(not nicotine, it just makes me sick) and armodafinil in small doses. Genetics? Now to defeat a type of dementia that has upended his life, his family is giving millions of dollars to help . Maybe you write things to files somewhere to be consumed by some federated monitoring system. I suppose it's possible, but I would be surprised. Sometimes the internet is so small. I think this is pretty natural. The creativity at the core of it can be remarkable. startup success). If you want to pay online, you need to register an account and provide credit card information. Of course, not every nightmare system is an unappreciated masterpiece. https://techcrunch.com/2019/08/15/cloudflare-has-a-third-cof https://www.policygenius.com/health-insurance/pre-existing-c https://journals.lww.com/neurotodayonline/Fulltext/2002/0900 https://perioperativemedicinejournal.biomedcentral.com/artic http://postgrest.org/en/v7.0.0/schema_structure.html#schema- https://postgrest.org/en/v7.0.0/api.html#resource-embedding, https://github.com/Wellers0n/react-admin-postgrest-client, https://www.postgresql.org/docs/current/plpython.html, https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2791340/. This hit especially close to home because my grandmother has been suffering from degenerative mental disease for the last few years. One evening my phone rang and the called ID came up as "Lee Holloway." I mean, if you stick to a rigorous procedure of automatically exporting your stored procedures to files and committing them to git with messages how is that different from any other development? Read the full article, which will appear in the May 2020 issue of WIRED, here. Service map data OpenStreetMap contributors. No nut or fruit trees allowed; those could be choking hazards once he develops difficulty swallowing, as his doctors anticipate he will. Welcome to maturing. This is a tragedy. Or was it entirely other people who noticed his decline, but he was oblivious? Also, it does not actually cost insurance companies much money as they can all just raise premiums. Maybe that's one reason why these systems tend to be found at the start of companies: more conventional approaches wouldn't have worked at a stage when hiring a team wasn't an option yet; and on the other hand, the teams you do hire at the later stages tend to have more conventional engineers whose minds (or rather, whose conditioning) can't grok why you'd ever have built something so weirdly. Wired did a sobering, melancholic, and a pretty poignant piece on his heartbreaking story which I encourage everyone to read. In my case it was sleep apnea in my 40s that took me from coding like a mfing riot to barely able to concentrate long enough to code a for loop. good luck. Is this different than what I posted in the op? one emacs buffer has stored procedure code, send functions over via keyboard shortcut to SQL repl buffer connected to DB to evaluate it 'live' (jupyter notebooks are basically a copy of this mode of operation in a more consumer-friendly package), 2) w/r/t python in db, as OP mentions pgsql, pgsql has support for in-db extensibility using a variety of languages, of which python is one: https://www.postgresql.org/docs/current/plpython.html probably referring to this. Lee Holloway Recommended Market Profiles (9) Site Perf/Opt (Lumascape) 5,000 - 10,000 employees. It's like different ways of balancing the same equation using the same resources. They got engaged in Rome. Page loads a whole new grid of fresh - potentially click worthy - videos! It didn't seem clear. One interesting thing is that the language and imagery used by the mystics of these different and separated religious traditions are often indistinguishable from each other- it's not clear if it was St. John of the Cross or Augustine or Zen Masters Ikkyu or Dogen who is saying them. It's sobering to see it in my own family, and it keeps thoughts like the one you articulated so well in the back of my mind constantly. How much do you think the instant gratification society that we're living in plays a role in this behavior? Spirtual insight may be a thing like mathematicqal talent- some people have a talent for it and some people don't. I'm not positive that the 2 Kings example is exactly free will being removed, because Elijah asks God for what happens, and God does respond to prayer (praying with faith is another issue). How much data? It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs. In. Some control. I suspect this will hold me back in my career. Nontoxic plants only. Love does not delight in evilbut rejoices with the truth. He was born on December 4, 1946 to Leander and Corina . I'm about to hit 45 and have been on that path for about 2 years now. He spent a lot more time asleep, for one. In terms of appointments, republicans have had control of the Supreme Court for years. We want to make sure you get the most out of our platform. These cookies help provide information on metrics the number of visitors, bounce rate, traffic source, etc. They're like the bridge between the dba world and the traditional developer world. Diversion, pixelserv-tls, Skynet, YazFi, scribe, connmon, ntpMerlin, scMerlin, uiDivStats, uiScribe, Unbound, FlexQoS, disk checker, on Ext4 w/J + 2GB swap file Yesterday's human enjoys similar overlap with an individual of two days prior. He would still trot out his usual bad jokes and regular phrases, but after a while you realize these are almost like reflexes, and often wouldn't really make sense in context. His projects and stacks were deliberately chosen for maximal reuse and to minimize wasted effort. Cloud Unicorn. The "standard library" is generally far less extensive than mainstream languages, leading to sub-standard, verbose, slow implementations (string concatenations and manipulations are a good example in MS SQL). From God's (or "a god's", for our dedicated atheists) POV, there is some enclosing context to the events of our lives that makes this mess we call reality "make sense". In the database you don't need to do any of this. It was a good read. Do you have any parallel-write setups with eventual consistency? From animals and plants in the jungle, to solar flares and asteroids, everything in nature is to us what a garrison of armed Stormtroopers is to Han Solo: they might miss most of the time, but its not going to be for lack of cruelty or intent. I feel incredibly sad and guilty I didnt even question whether he could be sick until when I heard his diagnosis about 6 months after hed left the company. I think you just have to retrain your brain to focus in other ways - exercise is shown to improve learning and brain function. I've known people starting to undergo dementia (as a general term, may have been Parkinson's, etc.) Alexandra and Lee had married young, and both had worked long hours; perhaps they had grown apart. I use emacs and interactively code inside the DB. -- thought and behavioral patterns that develop if there is inadequate self-assessment in place (which is how I would explain identical twins differentially developing the condition), and experiences of stress and trauma that can disrupt benign thought. I honestly think I was better at reading difficult material when I was a teenager. I can imagine people replying "but clearly, you're doing things that you shouldn't be - that's not what SPs are for!". 2. From everything I've seen and heard a telltale sign of FTD is complete obliviousness on the part of the patient. His colleagues noticed he was growing increasingly rigid and belligerent, resisting others' ideas, and ignoring their feedback. My father got diagnosed with this about a year and a half ago, and the first paragraph of your post sounds very familiar. There are lots of questions floating around about how affiliate marketing works, what to do and what not to do when it comes to setting up a business. And recently I also discovered that it's not programming itself that has become harder for me. It also saves a lot of extra work. Very interesting looking into the rise and sad fall of a genius and whose labors we all enjoy today, even if indirectly. ProWritingAid VS Grammarly: Which Grammar Checker is Better in (2022) ? Not A I agree with you that this won't always be the case, and at some point, brain dead is pretty much brain dead like in the case of survivors of gunshot wounds to the head for example. After long workdays, she recalls, he'd walk in the door, take off his shoes, and immediately pass out on the floor. I think we all have a sense of Alzheimers because weve all forgotten something. I am just not present in any situation. Tragically, Lee stepped down from Cloudflare in 2015, suffering the debilitating effects of Frontotemporal Dementia, a rare neurological disease. Our ability to easily query the state of the body, to assess which functional components are working, and which need help, is dismal. They took family trips. Between Kristin and Lees co-founders, they showed him so much love, acceptance and patience despite their bewilderment at his erratic, disengaged behavior. I personally think consideration of this apprach speaks of the technical range and sophistication of the practitioner.
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